Hello halfway thorugh 2019

Wow its already halfway through the year and I am just now writing my first blog. I have had a rough year so far. I lost my dad on March 8th. I have since then celebrated my 32nd birthday and Father's Day without him for the first time. His birthday is next month I know that it will be hard day too. I know it doesn't seem like a lot but I cant begin to tell you how hard that was. I mean there are still days that I go to pick up the phone to call him and tell him something about my day or something crazy that's going on at the house and then I realize that I cant and put the phone back down. It wasn't a surprise thing that he passed, I mean we knew it was going to happen and I had prepared myself for that, but what they fail to tell you to prepare for is after a loved one is gone. They don't prepare you for what you have to go through. I know he is in a better place and he is watching over me. There are days that I think he is sending me signs telling me that everything is okay. I still remember the last things he said to me. I know that I haven't grieved properly and that may be my fault but its a process that I am working through. I am angry at people that I really don't think that I need to be angry at. I mean when the time comes they are going to have to deal with the consequences of their actions and have to answer for them, not me so I guess I should let that be karma or punishment enough. But I think I would feel better if I could just slap the shit out of them once. One good thing did come out of all this, my brother and sister in law moved back home, so that's a plus. I get to see my niece and nephew more now. I will be moving in to my dads house at the end of the month, so that's another big change that will be happening. I think it will be good, some closure maybe. Or it could be the worst thing you never know.
 
Happier things, my best friends boys, Emmett and Bryson have birthdays this month and I cant wait to see their faces when they get their presents from Aunt Lala. It took me forever to find something that they wanted. Three dragons from How to Train Your Dragon pt3 for Emmett and a RC Flatbed truck for Bryson. Yay!
 
I started doing the 2019 Popsugar Reading Challenge, 2019 Read Harder Challenge and the Modern Mrs. Darcy Reading Challenge. I also picked up the reading challenge that my local library was having. I made a goal to read 130 books this year and at halfway I have read 61/130 books.

• Popsugar books read 34/50
• Read Harder books read 20/24
• MMD books read 7/12
• Library Challenge books read 15/24

 
I have 34 books left to read for all four challenges and that will put me at 110 books read, so I will have 20 more to read and I have recently bought so many that I want to read that wouldn't fit into any category, so I am pretty sure that I got this lol. I also have all of next week off from work, for my mandatory break in service for the Post Office so I plan on getting some reading in.
 
I am currently reading:

1. The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides my hold finally came in at the library for it.
2. Manson: the Life and Times of Charles Manson by Jeff Guinn
3. Killers of the Flower Moon: the Osage Murders and the Birth of the FBI by David Grann, my hold came in from Libby as well.

All three of these complete a prompt for at least one of the challenges lol
 
 
Here are my monthly read so far:

Title	Author	Date Complete
January Reads
1. The Favorite Daughter	Kaira Rouda	01/04/19
2. The Night Before	Wendy Walker	01/06/19
3. Ready Player One	Ernest Cline	01/08/19
4. Force of Nature	Jane Harper	01/10/19
5. People Like Us	Dana Mele	01/11/19
6. Red Hill	Jamie McGuire	01/14/19
7. MEG	Steven Atlen	01/21/19
8. Lottie and the Rustler	Linda Lea Castle	01/23/19
9. Chickens in Mittens	Adam Lehrhaupt	01/25/19
10. The Party	Robyn Harding	01/31/19
February Reads
1. Harriet the Spy	Louise Fitshugh	02/02/19
2. Dry	Neil Shusterman	02/05/19
3. The Horror of High Ridge	Julius Goodman	02/09/19
4. The Westing Game	Ellen Raskin	02/11/19
5. One Crazy Summer	Rita Willliams Garcia	02/12/19
6. Pippi Goes on Board	Astrid Lindgrin	02/13/19
7. When Dimple Met Rishi	Sandhya Menon	02/14/19
8. Alice in Wonderland	Lewis Carroll	02/15/19
9. The Gifting	K.E Ganshert	02/18/19
10. Sharon Tate and the Manson Murders	Gary King	02/22/19
11. Force of Nature	Dana Mentink	02/25/19
12. Voices of Siloam	Leah Burt	02/26/19
March Reads
1. Obsidio	Amie Kaufman	03/22/19
2. If I Was Your Girl	Meredith Russo	03/22/19
3. Advent of Dying	Carol Anne O'Marie	03/26/19
4. Perfect Chemistry	Simone Elkeles	03/27/19
April Reads
1. Pride and Prejudice and Zombies	Seth Graham-Smith	04/02/19
2. Forever Words: the Unknown Poems	Johnny Cash	04/04/19
3. Bittersweet	LaVryle Spencer	04/10/19
4. The Witch Tree Symbol	Carolyn Keene	04/11/19
5. Love Letters to the Dead	Ava Dellaira	04/11/19
6. Sugar Daddy	Lisa Kleypas	04/12/19
7. Lumberjanes #1	Noelle Stevenson	04/14/19
8. The Broken Girls	Simone St.James	04/15/19
9. Maximum Ride Vol 1	James Patterson	04/16/19
10. Piecing Me Together	Renee Watson	04/18/19
11. Insurgent	Veronica Roth	04/19/19
12. The Glass Forest	Cynthia Swanson	04/20/19
13. Sleeping Murder	Agatha Christie	04/20/19
14. Legend	Marie Lu	04/22/19
15. Scary Stories to Tell in The Dark	Alvin Shwartz	04/22/19
16. Come Sundown	Nora Roberts	04/25/19
17. The Outsider	Stephen King	04/30/19
May Reads
1. We Are Okay	Nina LaCour	05/01/19
2. The Haunting of Hill House	Shirley Jackson	05/02/19
3. Warcross	Marie Lu	05/06/19
4. Meet Molly	Valarie Tripp	05/09/19
5. Charmed Bones	Carolyn Hines	05/09/19
6. A Stanger on the Beach	Michelle Campbell	05/10/19
7. Scarlet	Marissa Meyer	05/13/19
8. Beartown	Fredrick Backman	05/16/19
9. Prodigy	Marie Lu	05/20/19
10. The Last Time I Lied	Riley Sager	05/22/19
11. The Stranger in the Woods	Micheal Finkle	05/23/19
12. A Princess in Theory	Alyssa Cole	05/29/19
13. The Kiss Quotient	Helen Hoang	05/22/19
June
1.Like Water for Chocolate	Laura Esquical	06/03/19
2.Go Ask Alice	Anonymous	06/04/19
3.The Sun is Also a Star	Nicola Yoon	06/08/19
4.Meddling Kids	Edgar Cantero	06/12/19
5.Five Feet Apart	Rachel Lippincott	06/12/19